Am I Weak? Yes....

Am I weak? Yes, I sure am, as a human being I am weak and am a sinner. There's no escaping that, and I won't try, in fact everyday I am faced with the horrible truth of the things I have done, or do, or might even do. Does that mean I am condemned to being weak in my life? NO!

I am weak, yes, my human spirit is, but in my faith, I AM STRONG! When I am weak, Christ Jesus steps in and gives me the help I so desperately need! He will do that for anyone who calls upon His name! How amazingly loving is that, that God would offer us a way out of our weakness, and into His strength!? Beyond description, my friends!

People might ask why I feel so strongly as I do, and perhaps even say I am wrong. I do not mind and for the most part I like to keep peace with others, ESPECIALLY in religious matters. Why? Why not scream and holler at people to make them see what I see? Because that is clearly NOT my job as a Christian, or even as a human being.

God gave us ALL free will! He doesn't want to force anyone into believing He loves them, and He doesn't want to force anyone to accept His way, either, however He wants so desperately for us to come to Him, and obey Him, so that He may be able to help and bless us through this life, and usher us into the next, Eternity with Him.

Only God can turn a heart to Him, nothing I can say will change the heart of any man or woman, and I accept that. Regretfully so, for I wish I could make every single person feel the peace and love, and the forgiveness and acceptance that I have felt, but alas, each person must experience it for themselves, each person has the right of free will, freedom to believe what they will, and I nor anyone else has the right to take that away from anyone!

I try to remain peaceful with all people, I fail miserable a lot, and I admit that. I try not to, as it discredits the message of Love from God, through Christ Jesus, but I am human and I am trying to become a better person, and God is patient, thank You God! No matter how peaceful I wish to remain, however, it is still my duty and my HONOR to represent Jesus to anyone who comes into my life. As I said, I am not perfect, and do Jesus injustice sometimes with my behavior, but I ask forgiveness and try to overcome my weaknesses.

I wish for all of humanity to come to know Jesus, but even God has written in His Word that many will be deceived. I must accept this, and realize just how much it must hurt God that people would reject His perfect love, for their own ideas and beliefs. It must hurt Him deeply, and even still, He loves us so much, that He isn't going to MAKE anyone believe in Him, but rather, He calls to our hearts with a tender, loving voice!

Sometimes I must seem passive in my faith, and that is just not the way I feel. I am on fire for how Jesus has helped me, and if you're interested, drop me a message, I'd love to share some of my story with you, but my story continues, for I am nowhere near perfect, and admit so.

I pray that my actions may not hinder anyone's ability to see Jesus as He is. I believe it is a grave sin to portray Jesus incorrectly and I also pray that God will align me with His Word. I am not perfect, but the Savior that I worship and love IS perfect!

I do not condemn anyone that doesn't believe as I do, for it is NOT my job to judge anyone, only to judge my own actions, and try to align them with God's Word, and His commands. I love everyone, as God has created each and every person, and I love His amazing ways, I love His Creation, I love God! Therefore, I love you all, no matter what you believe, I pray that the Light of God may shine upon your hearts, and that you may hear His still small voice calling you Home.

God bless and keep you all, and may you forgive my weaknesses, as I strive to grow stronger.

Living Water

As I was looking at my corn sprouts recently, again, God touched my heart. I find so many awe inspiring things in nature, and they all tell of God's amazing power, and His never ending love.

As I looked upon the corn sprouts, I noticed that they each held a bead of water in the middle of the leaves, like a diamond sparkling in the sun. The water sat in the midst of the leaves like it was being displayed in a museum, and it made me think of God's amazing ways.

There's so many things that came to mind, first, how this plant could sprout from a dried up seed, and grow into a plant reminded me how we are to sow seeds for God. From our dried up lives, God can do amazing things, we just need to obey Him, and sow seeds of His love to others. The seed must die before the plant may gain life, and so must we realize that though we sowed a seed for God, it is by His power that we did so, and we must let our pride die, and not think too highly of ourselves, for it was not our planting of the seed that makes the plant grow, it is God.

As I looked into the sparkling bead of water, I was in awe how this small plant held the very thing inside of it that gave it life, and it displayed it so beautifully. It didn't hide it's source of nourishment, it displayed it in a beautiful manner, showing anyone that dared look it's way, where it was getting it's life from.

This is exactly how Christians should live their lives. Jesus is the Living Water and only through Him are we given life. When we live in His love and His guidance, we are nourished and we grow into someone that God can use for good, and essentially He can use us to give life and love to others.

The way that the corn plant displayed that droplet of water was amazing, and we need to display our Living Water for others to see, too! When we hold Jesus in our hearts, or rather, ask  Him to reside in our heart and soul, we are similar to the corn plant, and our heart becomes like a diamond sparkling to those that experience the life in us that Jesus gives.

The wonder and amazement I feel when God reveals His secrets and His love to me, well, it makes me feel so very loved, because I realize how much that God does for us, what He had planned long before He created us, and how His love is in everything around us. 

I pray that I may be more able to display the diamond in my heart, my Lord and Saviour, Jesus, so that when others look at me, they may not see what I have done, but how God sustains me and shines through me! For without God, I am merely a dried up seed, sowing nothing at all, and to God be the glory, for any good I may bring to this world.

Shining Spirit, Named Mark

When I went to the allergist yesterday, I never expected to be blessed so dearly. God is amazing, and His love and displays of His wonder never end, even though our minds tend to think that they do have limits. God's love and His grace came to me, through the shining spirit of an 82 year old man.

When I went in, I stood in line behind a tall man, waiting to sign my name on the sign in sheet. As I was waiting, an elderly man in a wheel chair was rolled in by a woman, and they had a younger woman with them. I imagined that it must be his daughter, and his granddaughter.

I moved out of their way so they could walk by me, and as they passed, I could not help but to notice this elderly man. Not because he was in a wheel chair, or even because he was old, I noticed him because his spirit shined brightly. You could clearly see happiness on this man's face! I don't think there was a single moment that he didn't have a big shining smile on his face.

The man in line in front of me commented on the old man's Penn State baseball cap, and I wasn't paying attention to what was going on, but the next thing I knew, the older woman that was with the elderly man yelled "Oh, you stop it! I can't believe you said such a smart aleck (not her word lol) thing to that man!" I looked at the man in line and he was laughing, and so was the elderly man, in fact, he seemed quite proud of whatever he had said.

Obviously this woman had her hands full with this fiesty old man, and she seemed shocked at him, however, the man that was in line was getting a charge out of him, too. The old man said "Ah, he's not gonna do anything, ya have to respect your elders" and he smiled such a mischeivious smile, I couldn't help but let out a giggle at his defiance lol. The woman said, "Yes, well, ya don't have to be a smart aleck!" The old man giggled and I turned and said, "I think you've lived long enough to earn the right to be a smart aleck, haven't you sir?" He smiled even brighter and said, "Yes, and I"m a veteran too!" I told him that gave him double the right to be a smart aleck.

He asked me to guess his age, and I terrible hate to do such a thing, because I am usually always wrong lol, so I avoided it and he tried to make me guess, but gave in and told me he was 82 years old. Let me just note, this man did not look 82, he looked elderly but by no means did he look old and worn. 

He talked to me and the man that was in line ahead of me for some time, and I asked him what his name was, "Matthew, Mark, Luke, or John?!" He shouted, wanting me to guess, but immediately the older woman that was with him yelled, "MARK!" So I stuck my hand out and said, "My name is Bekkah, Mark, and it is truly an honor to meet a character such as yourself" He thought I guessed his name and smiled and laughed when I told him the woman with him cheated a little bit lol :)

He had one of his legs amputated and when the man that was in line ahead of me asked him if he lost in the war, he said that he hadnt'. It got silent but I had to know what happened to him, so I asked. He ended up getting a knee replacement surgery, and got a staph infection and had to get his leg amputated. I felt sorry for him, but let me tell you, that only lasted a milisecond. What that man said after he told what happened to his leg humbled me, it blessed me, it inspired me, and it brought a tear to my eye at the amazing character this man had. He must have seen the look on my face, because he said, "Aw, it's okay, God never gives you more than you can handle, and by golly, I must not have been able to handle two legs!" He smiled and was so happy, this man lacked nothing, and though he had lost his leg, there was nothing that could take away the happiness in his heart.

My visit with Mark was cut short by his doctor appointment, and I wish I had gotten his address so I could write him, but I just really cannot tell you how that man blessed me so deeply. We think that we have it tough, and sometimes we do, but yet his man showed me that no matter what we go through, that God is in control, and He means for us to live a happy and loving life. Mark is living that life, and he's got more life in him than some young people I know.

I have always enjoyed those prankster, joking kinda older people. Mark was one of the most amazing people I have had the opportunity to meet in such a brief fashion. I pray that God blesses him so much, for the blessing that he put upon my heart, and may he always misbehave, no matter how much the woman with him begs him to stop :) 

God bless you Mr. Mark, my love to you, my respect, and admiration are yours....